dinoandbuddha

1. What did you do in 2010 that you'd never done before?
Went on a vacation to St. Louis. Got a house with my boyfriend. Graduated college. Got a full time job with benefits. Cut every bit of hair off my head.

2. Did you keep your new year's resolutions, and will you make more for next year?
Arbitrarilly. I always have a handful of personal/nontangible goals that I work on every year. At the end of this year, I love myself and my body. I lost weight, but only at the very end. This year, my goals are to become healthier and stronger than ever. Read more, love more, travel more.

3. Did anyone close to you give birth?
Christina's sister. I'm not really friends with breeders.

4. Did anyone close to you die?
Not this year.

5. What countries did you visit?
None. Only the US for me. Need to change that in the future.

6. What would you like to have in 2011 that you lacked in 2010?
Much, much more travel. More adventure. More new things. Never to become complacent. Better job, better me.

7. What date from 2010 will remain etched upon your memory, and why?
July 17, 2010 when I saw LADY GAGA! We cried, we laughed, we got fucking tanked. Best day.

8. What was your biggest achievement of the year?
Finishing school! First in my whole family.

9. What was your biggest failure?
Getting so fucking fat. Letting fear ruin myself and my future and my possibilities. Gaining too much debt.

10. Did you suffer illness or injury?
I only get sick maybe once or twice a year with a year with a general flu-aids-death virus.

11. What was the best thing you bought?
My hot pink scooter! Yeeeehaw!

12. Whose behaviour merited celebration?
Kenny, for always. He's the kindest most patient most amazing dude ever.

13. Whose behaviour made you appalled and depressed?
Most of America.

14. Where did most of your money go?
Rent, booze, fun.

15. What did you get really, really, really excited about?
Finishing school. Getting a job. SEEING GAGA.

16. What song will always remind you of 2010?
Dancing in the Dark by LG.

17. Compared to this time last year, are you:
i. happier or sadder? Happy as of this second. I had a verrrry dark episode this year.
ii. thinner or fatter? Thinner, but only by about 10 pounds. Got a long way to go.
iii. richer or poorer? Richer, but still have no real savings.

18. What do you wish you'd done more of?
Saved money. Paid off my debts. Travled more. Gotten more tattoos. Worked out.

19. What do you wish you'd done less of?
Stressed. The last 6 months of 2010 I think I figured it out, though. Much less of a worrywort. Oh yeah, and eating too much.

20. How will you be spending Christmas?
Probably the same as every year which is the retard parade of family fuckery.

21. How will you be spending New Years?
Hopefully with Kenny. I try not to make plans a year in advance.

22. Did you fall in love in 2010?
Re-fell for KP.

23. How many one-night stands?
365.

24. What was your favourite TV program?
Sons of Anarchy!!! Oh and Maury.

25. Do you hate anyone now that you didn't hate this time last year?
I want to punch this fat fucking vegan cunt, but that's it.

26. What was the best book you read?
Sonny Barger's biography and any new Laurell K. Hamilton books that may have come out.

27. What was your greatest musical discovery?
Die Antwoord for the lolz.

28. What did you want and get?
A job.

29. What did you want and not get?
More travel.

30. What was your favourite film of this year?
Inception and Black Swan.

31. What did you do on your birthday, and how old were you?
Nothing, and 25.

32. What one thing would have made your year immeasurably more satisfying?
More cash.

33. How would you describe your personal fashion concept in 2010?
Punk. Forever.

34. What kept you sane?
Kenny and big ass bottles of wine.

35. Which celebrity/public figure did you fancy the most?
JGL! He's had a breakout few years with (500) Days of Summer, G.I. Joe and Inception.

36. What political issue stirred you the most?
DADT.

37. Who did you miss?
Zachary Wayne Yancey.

38. Who was the best new person you met?
Monet! She's so amazing, I'm so in love.

39. Tell us a valuable life lesson you learned in 2010?
Life is too fucking short to be doing something you don't like.

40. Quote a song that sums up your year.
"Work your Jon Bennett Ramsey while hot like Liberace, find your freedom in the music, find your Jesus, find your cupid!" -LG. Find what makes you happy and do it and fuck the haters.

Moved back into my mom's house with KP. Mom's friends tease her saying we're boomerang kids, but I'm just waiting until my new house is finished being renovated. We'll be in by July first. Did I mention I just got my degree? I wish the whole world would kiss my ass sometimes.

This is the first time I've slept 'til 2:30pm since I was a teenager. I suppose it's because I didn't have any alcohol in my system. First time I hadn't drank in public since probably middle school. And no, it wasn't cool. It was miserable. But good for my liver and intestines and such. I plan on such alcohol fasts periodically in the future.

Graduation on the 14th. I'm definatly drinking that day.

Job hunting is terrifying. I have like the least self-esteem in this area of my life. I always feel like I'm underqualified because my job history is lame (chickfila, hot topic, sackn'save, etc.) I do have two degrees (or will have the 2nd in May to be truthful), but that doesn't ever make me feel any better for some reason. All I really want to do is move to Fort Worth and you know, have a *real* job. TERRIFYING.

I never update, but to my credit I've had a lot on my plate.

-KP (my boyfriend) has spent the past few weekends in jail knocking out a bougus-ass sentance. He still has four more weekends to go.
-Work full time at Chicfila.
-Fulltime school which is 66% online and I do not have internet at my home.
-Graduation is in less than 2 months.
-Two weeks after graduation, we are moving to another town about 45 miles away from where we currently live.
-Sometime between now and then KP and I both have to find jobs in the area.
-Good family friend I've known since I was a tiny child died last week.
-My best friend is moving several states away from me.

And somewhere in the midst of all this I'm supposed to live life as well. Oddly enough, no emotional or stressful breakdowns thus far. I feel I'm living and dancing right on the edge but I could fall at any time. Taking it easy. Very easy. Trying to have fun and keep the PMA at all times.

I'm so glad I have a job now. All I do is eat and sleep and work and rest and read. All my favorite things to do. I had another dream about the ex. This one was much different though as he was comming to me to apologise. Maybe my psyche is figuring out what to do with those old memories so he will stop haunting me. I wonder if he covered up the tattoo he got for me on his leg. Guess I'll never know.

I don't think I'm ever going to get my head right.

Now after some dibilitating lows, I'm manic as hell today. I feel like a teenager again seeing as I haven't had these severe of moodswings since then. I realized this as I'm leaving comments 8 lines long on people's facebooks and woke up making mental lists. I'm a lister. It's part of my other mental defects, but when I get manic-y, it takes over. I start making lists of things I see, things I want to buy, things that start with the letter P, favorite numbers, books I've read, movies I watch... The list goes on. (Oh, I'm so punny.)

Usually, I only get this way when the shit hits the fan. And actually, it's not so bad these days. The only thing that really is bothering me is living in this useless town, but hopefully that will be remedied in the next 6 months. Life is good, I have great parents, an amazing boyfriend, a cuteass dog, a house, a job, almost another degree, financial aid should be here in a week... So what's with the crazy bouncing-off-the-wall-chatty mania I'm dealing with today? idgi.

1. What did you do in 2009 that you'd never done before?
Got dreadlocks. Made peace with myself. Continued in a real long-term relationship (well, 2 years is long-term to me). That's probably it. 2009 was not a banner year for SB.

2. Did you keep your new year's resolutions, and will you make more for next year?
I usually make my new years resolutions simple so I don't feel like a failure at the end of the year. Last years was to dress cuter more often. This year's is the same, but with a twist "less bro, more babe". Also, I wanna lose wieght, but that's a given one for every year.

3. Did anyone close to you give birth?
Eww. I don't know. Probably.

4. Did anyone close to you die?
My step-grandfather.

5. What countries did you visit?
I've never been outside of the US.

6. What would you like to have in 2010 that you lacked in 2009?
Well I will be a college graduate, so I'm looking forward to that. I guess I will be seeking better direction career wise or at least a good job to keep durring grad school. Oh and I guess I want to get settled on a gradute program. I also want a killer body. Superficial me, whatever.

7. What date from 2009 will remain etched upon your memory, and why?
Most days are a drunken happy blur, hopefully 2010 will be the same. I don't wish to get pregnant or get married, so I doubt any dates will shake my foundation in that way.

8. What was your biggest achievement of the year?
Surviving. I'm always suprized and proud of myself when I last another year.

9. What was your biggest failure?
Not graduating on time.

10. Did you suffer illness or injury?
I don't often get sick but OH MAN the "stomach flu"/food poisoning wierdness K and I got was UNREAL. Sick and puking for a WEEK.

11. What was the best thing you bought?
I have no idea. Pick any of my records, I guess.

12. Whose behaviour merited celebration?
I don't get this question, but Kenny always deserves celebration so I'll pick him. Or I guess Chris for graduating! Or Shane for his success in kicking his herion addiction! Yeehaw!

13. Whose behaviour made you appalled and depressed?
No one's behaviour makes me depressed or appalled besides my own.

14. Where did most of your money go?
Rent, Bills, and Booze. :)

15. What did you get really, really, really excited about?
Probably any number of shows. Seeing Annihiltion Time for the last time.

16. What song will always remind you of 2009?
YING YANG TWINS WHISPER SONG HAHAHAHAHHA. Goddammit, that was the best drunken 72 hours ever. Can't wait for this summer.

17. Compared to this time last year, are you:
i. happier or sadder? I think I'm happier. Or at least just as happy.
ii. thinner or fatter? FATTER.
iii. richer or poorer? Well, we never have any money but now we have a cool house. So I guess in a sense richer.

18. What do you wish you'd done more of?
Traveled. I wish I'd gotten tattoos and gone out more often. I wish I'd gone to more shows and more parties.

19. What do you wish you'd done less of?
Eatting.

20. How will you be spending Christmas?
Probably the same way I do every year which is driving all over creation to see all mine and kenny's families.

21. How will you be spending New Years?
Oh, I am so done putting faith in that dumbass holiday. Here's to even making it to midnight.

22. Did you fall in love in 2009?
Fell farther in love and grew within that love. Still learning and still loving.

23. How many one-night stands?
Zero.

24. What was your favourite TV program?
Maury will always and forever be my favorite show and I don't care what you have to say about it. But then again I really did enjoy True Blood and Sons of Anarchy.

25. Do you hate anyone now that you didn't hate this time last year?
I don't necessarily hate them, but there are a few people I wouldn't mind kicking the crap out of (again.)

26. What was the best book you read?
New Reads: Hell's Angel by Ralph "Sonny" Barger, Ron Jeremy's autobiography, Skin Trade by Laurel K. Hammilton.
Rereads: A Wrinkle in Time by Madelain L'engle and the whole Anita Blake (LKH) series.

27. What was your greatest musical discovery?
Kimya Dawson. I don't care what you have to say about why she's now famous bc I just then heard her and I love what she has to say. Not anything like my normal cuppa tea, but she's great. My punk bands have all pretty much been the same.

28. What did you want and get?
A house and a puppy.

29. What did you want and not get?
A day job. I hate hate hate working nights.

30. What was your favourite film of this year?
Avatar was so good, also add Terminator Salvation and Star Trek.

31. What did you do on your birthday, and how old were you?
I turned 24 and I was partying at various places in my halloween costume. Kenny got me a bottle of peach Andre champagne (hahaha) and we shared it with friends at midnight. Oh and I drank probably a whole bottle of tequila. Oof.

32. What one thing would have made your year immeasurably more satisfying?
Neither Kenny or I getting arrested.

33. How would you describe your personal fashion concept in 2009?
Ugh, what fashion? Cutoff shorts, punk shirts made into tank tops, vans. Skater thrash stupid punk fashion.

34. What kept you sane?
Kenny seriously is a saint because he knows how to handle me.

35. Which celebrity/public figure did you fancy the most?
I love Steve Bucemi and Miles Austin (Cowboy reciever). Obama was cool, too. I like Maury Povich and Anthony Bourdain.

36. What political issue stirred you the most?
Our black president. Don't even deny that Obama being elected didn't blow your mind at the time!

37. Who did you miss?
Zach. I'm always and forever going to miss him though.

38. Who was the best new person you met?
My new boss Josh. Oh man, kid is the bee's knees for real. Makes me laugh through my whole shift.

39. Tell us a valuable life lesson you learned in 2009?
To take life by the balls and do whatever you want because you ain't getting prettier and you ain't getting younger and it's never going to be any easier.

40. Quote a song that sums up your year.
FUN FUN FUN THAT'S WHAT WE SAY! FUN FUN FUN WE'RE AWESOME ANYWAY!

This is the "man" I used to date. Now everyone can know why I broke up with him. He and his wife I can honestly say deserve each other. Someone point out to me how I'm being a great temptation, and I'll give you a cookie. We broke up over 3 years ago and this is my first attempt at friendly contact:


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Saw Bison Saturday night and was reminded of why I love music and shows. They stayed at my house and actually sat down and talked to me in the morning. Great beautiful hairy men. Haha.

Going to the TX state fair for the first time on Thursday. I'm really excited to eat any and all fried foods that will fit in my fatty belly. And I don't feel wierd about that.

My new nails make this way too hard to type.